mrfjsf said:
Thanks for the words of encouragement snow. While I realize, and have for some time now, that I need to quit. Honestly, I dont want to. I know how bad that sounds. Especially given all the people ive known over the years get sick from it, cancer and die.
You're genuinely welcome. And you're right, it's pretty discouraging to hear, but I respect that you're honest about it. You're driving this train, and you have complete control of the throttle. What you don't have control over is where the tracks are laid. You've seen where they go for several people you know, but what I'm not seeing in your post is the awareness that your personal set of tracks could run off the cliff. If you don't want to quit, and you're not willing to become willing to want to quit, you won't.
I hope that you won't mind that I'm going to another run at saying that there's another way to go about this. I promise that this will be the last one. It's Sunday morning, and I've got a list of chores as long as long as my arm, and this is going to take awhile to type. I hope you'll consider reading this and checking out these links are worth your time to read; I think you're worth my time to type this.
mrfjsf said:
Even knowing all that, I still enjoy every cigarette.
http://whyquit.com/whyquit/joelcigfriend.html
http://whyquit.com/whyquit/LinksAAddiction.html
mrfjsf said:
Im only 27, been smoking for 11 years.
So when you were 16, you made a decision that is affecting the rest of your life. I hope you were smarter at 16 than I was. That's when I started smoking, too, but I didn't know that I was going to be addicted from the first cigarette, or how much it would affect my life. I just knew I wanted that sensation of relief again. And again.
mrfjsf said:
Before you started smoking, how did you feel about your family smoking? How did you feel about trying to breathe when they were smoking, what did you think of the smell? Here's the story of a woman who grew up in a family of smokers. I hope you read it:
http://whyquit.com/whyquit/A_Deborah.html
mrfjsf said:
Dear mother smokes nearly 3 packs a day
Let me guess: she doesn't want to quit. She enjoys every cigarette. She loves her habit more than she does you or the rest of your family. She's had the opportunity to choose, and she chose the smokes.
mrfjsf said:
tried telling her to at least cut back before, never listens.
Sounds frustrating.
mrfjsf said:
Anyways, I read thru the other thread you bumped (thanks btw), you're welcome; good on ya for reading through it
and I saw a post in there from another member about a guy he works with that only smokes 1 cig a day because he doesnt like the feeling that he'll never have another one again. interesting that this is the one that stood out for you. I thought it might be. I figured you'd read the ones about the guy who had a node of his lung cut out (he was about your age) and suffered multiple lung collapses, but he really enjoyed smoking, so he kept doing it, but focus on the post about the one who just smokes one cigarette a day.
I think that describes me to a T. I hate the fact of knowing that if I quit, ill never have one again, because once again, I really enjoy smoking. I dont know that id ever be able to only have one a day. You're probably right about that. I can tell you, though, that `none' is one of your available options.
So far today, ive only had 4. Which for me is about 7-8 short of what id normally have by this point in the day. Ive tried cold turkey 3 times before, all with fail. Because it came back to me not really wanting to quit. My excuse for starting again was "why am I quitting when I want to smoke? My health is still good so I have no other reason"
Please carefully read this:
mrfjsf said:
Ive decided to try one of those e-cigs to cut back smoking a little. Im only a pack a day smoker
but ive noticed quite a bit more coughing these days and im fighting off bronchitis right now soooo I think its time to make a change.
My friend gave me an N Joy Menthol to try (I smoke menthols) and quite honestly its awful.
Everytime I take a puff and inhale it feels like my lungs are being ripped out. I cough like crazy and then go back to my regular smokes.
Hint: this is not the behavior of healthy people. It's what addicts do to keep from feeling the pain of withdrawal. Most people would not willingly inhale a substance that would "make me cough like crazy and feel like my lungs are being ripped out". Here's another link worth looking at when you're looking for crutches to help quit: http://whyquit.com/pr/061411.html
I do rub snuff on occasion to try to reduce the amount im smoking but I know it isnt much of a safe alternative.
(broken link removed to http://whyquit.com/whyquitSeanMarsee.html)
(broken link removed to http://whyquit.com/whyquitA_Gruen.html)
Any suggestions?
Sure. Here's my suggestion. Quit. Quit for a year and a day.
Then make a conscious, reasoned, adult decision about whether you want to smoke instead of continuing to act on a decision you made as a teenager when you didn't understand the consequences. And then if you want to smoke, go for it. Embrace the lifestyle. Do as you wish.
When I read what you have written, I recognize the addiction speaking for you. It's just about impossible to see for yourself if you're practicing your addiction.